have yourself... a merry little christmas...

Although Carl and I have been together for almost 3 years (unlike many couples we do not do the whole "I've been with my bf/gf for __ years, __ months, __ days, and __ hours" because we're not sure when we became official... but whatever, it's almost 3 years ) I still get nervous when it comes to meeting his parents. Don't get the wrong idea though, they are very nice and there's absolutely nothing scary about them. It's just me, because, for the first time, I'm meeting them when Carlos is at the other half of the world, we are separated by seas, mountains, skies and many many many hours... BUT I WILL BE FINE... I hope -.-

Last year's Christmas was completely different from this year. Unlike last year's "must-complete-FYP" stint, this year I'm working on the 2nd day of Christmas instead of waiting for two turtle doves from my true love... actually a watch and a handbag are on its way... hehehe...

I'm just terrible this year, I haven't even thought of what to get for Carl, normally I'm already geared with wrapping paper and ribbons, this year is just sad... You see, I know what Carl really wants for Christmas, if I had a choice, I would fly all the way to UK to cook nasi lemak and his favourite pork dish for him... I know he needs that now... BUT I'M FAR AWAY...

So... I'm on a mission... and it's a secret a mission that even Carlos Yan doesn't know about... Unlike my previous missions when I had my partner with me, this year I'm going solo... Don't worry babe... I'll be A ok... ;) just have faith in me...

I'm going to plan my mission now... in the midst of getting in orders, making sure the shipments are not delayed and payments are received, I'm going to achieve this mission...

Until then, I'll be caroling my way into Christmas...

the things that mattered then... and now...

I chanced upon someone's blog awhile ago... some SPB member... and it dawned upon me that 3 years ago... SPB was my life. My life revolved around reporting at events, writing articles, looking for sponsors, hanging out at the SPR and trying my best to play my part at keeping the board alive...

Nothing much has changed since I left anyway, everything still seems the same to me, and I think everything will still remain the same for a long time...

Funny thing is, SPB used to mean so much to me, my moods will go crazy if something's not right with the website, or if the yearbook's not complete... I would curse the person in charge for not fulfilling his/her duties... bla bla bla... but now, i'm wondering why these things actually mattered so much, because these things just seem somewhat trivial now...

In a way, SPB did alot for me, but I guess, sometimes we all have to let go... sometimes the better thing to do would be to give it all away to someone else, someone more capable, someone more deserving perhaps... and just watch from afar...

There's one thing that mattered alot to me then and still matters alot to me now... and it's going to matter for a long long time... and i'm not about to let go any time soon because it's not a phase...

of the atmosphere at atmosphere cafe

I am currently at a cafe in setia alam... it's called atmosphere cafe... and the atmosphere here is atmospheric... ahahaha.... what the hell...

Ok, this place is really cosy and neat. White chairs and tables, a hint of green here and there and at the side they have these cute little japanese style tables where you can enjoy the japanese style of eating... best part is... they have wireless service here!

Anyways, it has been about 3 weeks since I last went home... I miss home alot now... Can't wait to head back to Melaka on Thursday night and spend time with mum...

Now that I'm away from home, I always want to drive back to Melaka... Nothing's as comforting as helping mum in the kitchen, or sitting on the sofa and reading, or just lazing around on the carpet and falling asleep... damn I miss home now...

I guess wherever I am, there's no place like home... even at this atmosphere cafe, where everything's some what ideal... nothing's like my dining table at home... sigh... i think i'm home sick... counting down the days to Thursday night... then I'm heading back to my favourite place in the world...

4 days and counting down...

of driving a manual car... again.

You see, I've been so used to my auto myvi that the last time i tried to drive my old daihatsu, it was... horrendous...

SO, this morning... i woke up with the mission of driving the old daihatsu around the taman... I took the car key, forgot that there is no remote control and I need to open the door with the key, stared at the dashboard, adjusted the seat, and started the engine...

I carefully placed my left foot on the clutch and my right foot on the accelerator...

attmept no. 1 to reverse the car - fail. Car 'mati' engine (nevermind, try again)
attempt no. 2 to reverse the car - fail. Car 'mati' engine again (what the hell, i really suck now)
attempt no. 3 to reverse the car - pass. The car was moving! (YES! YES! WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS! WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!)

When i managed to reverse the car out of the house, I decided to bring the car for a spin. So I slowly drove and then... yes, I was back to my old self... I can still drive a manual car...

muahaha... will be going visiting in awhile... maybe i should leave the myvi at home this time...